hello.
Just finish my dinner at home. Tomorrow will be my dead end already. reporting at 10am tomorrow morning. hope everything is fine. really hope i can stay in singapore instead of malaysia. Malaysia sucks. Because if i go back there. i will be alone and have no relative and friends over there. im scare. really scare. today never go school because i'm really tired. cant sleep at night. even how tired i am , i also can't sleep. Really feeling very stress. All my friend said to me i will be fine. But they are not in my shoes and think for me. i'm not a PR or either singaporean. i'm a malaysia. Holding student pass so i can stay here. But i have ruined every single thing and my future. if i get sentence. i will finish my punishment in singapore and fucking hell get back to where i were born. Nobody understands. NOBODY ! i'm sick and tired of my life already. i really don't know what i should do. Mum, i'm sorry i have done so many foolish thing and yet you are still by my side caring for me althought u are naggy.
I know is all for my own good. but i did'nt listen to what you have said. And now i really regret. Really. Nobody can help me now. Except of GOD. only GOD can help me now. I have really pray hard already. Hope tomorrow i'll be fine. hope for the best and i'm prepared already.


*Smile when its shine , never frown when its rain ! (:


FAREWELL !

currently at home,
still thinking what to do about it .
but i think thats no return way for me .
I'm at the end of the road already.
think too much alo no use.
it's over ! really over !
i know i'm a ASK , DOGS or anything that people can say about me.
is alright for me. as long that i'm happy i will not care about people mouth or what they say about me.
is alright.
seriously.
no point talking about this anymore.

This world is like that. and god is fair. but i just don't like it.

Fuck It Man !

hey guys, i'm back to blog already.
life seems boring anyway.
And i have ruined my future.
i just came out from a place thats only dogs can tolerate to live in.
its suck. seirous. i'm a malaysian.
so how? i cant get any case in singapore. if i get it.
i will be send back to my country. i'm really scare.
but what can i do ?
NOTHING.
Things that have been done cannot be undone.
so is useless.
now just waiting for reporting on 1/4/2009.
hope everything can be fine.
now i just can pray hard and hope people can pray hard for me too.
i have dissapointed my parents and my family members and friends.
I'm sorry ! really.
if i really got send back to my own country.
i just wish that my family will be fine and save.
i'm sorry mum .
really sorry. although i've been adopt by you.
you're still my mum.
i have done so many stupid things and dissapoint you.
i'm really useless.
maybe this my last post for blog? i hope is not.
but i don't think so.
is a very high chance that i will be send back to my country.
Hate this world.
Fuck the world!


FAREWELL GUYS !




And YOU GUYS ! I WILL NOT FORGET THE TIME WE ARE TOGETHER AND HAVE FUN! FAREWELL !